These past couple of weeks I have done more than I’ve done in the past months. I’ve been through something that has changed my way of looking at things and made me see how blessed I am to live the life I am living. Let me tell you more about it.
A couple of weeks ago I got really sick. My chaotic sleeping schedule and eating schedule plus stress because of some recent events that have happened in my life had taken a toll on me and I ended up in the hospital with intense stomach aches and without being able to eat anything. It was tough, I felt horrible, I couldn’t even watch TV or sit on my phone, I didn’t feel like doing anything because of my stomach pain.
It took some time to recover and even now I am taking medication and have to keep a certain diet. But getting better has helped me realize just how lucky I am to have such a wonderful life. There are people around me who genuinely care for me and streaming makes me happy. I wanted to do a lot of things. I was rushing because I hadn’t fully recovered but I didn’t care because I felt so happy to be alive. I started streaming again and soon I even started vlogging. I couldn’t stream for much at the beginning because I would get exhausted fast. Actually, I couldn’t really do anything for a long time for the same reason. But I would do them for as much as I could.
In the past I didn’t want to start vlogging because I didn’t think my dslr would be good for it. It’s bulky and even though it is one of the lighter dslr’s I felt that it won’t do the job very well. I didn’t care anymore, though, I wanted to start vlogging as soon as possible. I was scared because I thought no one would like it but I had to give it a try. I didn’t know exactly what to vlog about but there was a new mall opening close to my area so I figured I could just vlog about that at first. Unfortunately, I wasn’t allowed to film with my camera inside the mall. I was allowed to film with my phone but the quality of my phone camera is not really that great. I managed to get some footage of a restaurant full of fish aquariums though.
Even so, I didn’t let that stop me. I kept vlogging and eventually posted my first vlog on youtube. I was scared and nervous thinking of the reactions I could get from my followers. I didn’t think they would like it, especially since the video was kind of shaky (as I said, my camera was pretty heavy for me and my hand would get tired holding it after a while). Despite my fears, the reactions were incredible. Everyone was telling me that they liked the vlog and encouraging me to do more. Which I plan on doing.
My life has changed for the better after I got healthier. I feel like this was a new beginning for me. I have so many plans for the future (a thing that would never happen before, or if it did it would just end at that – plans). You never really know how blessed you are until something major is taken away from you. With me, it was my health.
I hope to be able to get better at vlogging in the future. In the meantime I also bought a new camera which is lighter and better for filming. I also bought a monopod for more stability while filming. I’m happy and positive now and things seem to only get better.